Road Back On Track

I am always ready to try different methods to get my health better, especially my back because I've been fighting with it for 4 years. I'm using 3 different medications for the pain, and those are not the ones to only take when needed. I've been reading about natural medicine a bit, but haven't really done anything related to it. Maybe because of being scared or skeptical or whatever reason, there could be behind it.  But now, my mom found about Ayurvedic medicine , which is traditional and also one of the oldest natural holistic medicine. She, of course, told me about it and after that, we made an appointment with one practitioner in Finland. He has been studying in India, so it sounded promising. The main idea for me was to go there open-minded. No pre-assumptions. And I totally went there like that, because I didn't know much about it. I just knew what was written on their website, and that's all. BUT I had a goal in my mind, one day reduce the number of my ...

I admit it, I am tired of being tired. I am tired of searching for answers, I am tired of the pain. I am just tired. If I would be able to change my body, I would do it any day. The biggest thing I have learned during the past few days: Do not ever take food and eating for granted. Never. I went back to the ER on Wednesday evening, and I was not able to eat anything for almost 50h. I tried to eat, but the pain after eating was just something terrible. And the pain is still terrible after eating, but I am not able to keep going without eating. The situation was same with drinking, I could not drink anything, doctors were worried I would get dehydrated, so I got fluids via IV. I have not been able to sleep properly since Tuesday-Wednesday night. Last night I slept maybe 3h, the night before that same (or even less). And I see some very vivid dreams because of the pain and medications - those dreams feel very real, it is a weird feeling. I was sent home from the hospita...

Let's continue my story about how I got here etc. My previous post was already telling a bit where I am now, about those not so good moments and days. But here is the real continuous for the story of how I got here, where I am now. Too much time After my hospitalization in November, I thought that the worst is over. In some way, yes it was, because I was out from the hospital - which was already one step closer to recovery. And I was able to travel home (from my other home) to celebrate my dad's birthday. Missing the father's day was not nice, but at least I was able to surprise him by coming home for his birthday! :) Spending time with my cat was also nice after hospitalization. ;) But it was not easy to be at home. Much harder than I thought. And I had too much time at home because I could not attend to any training, and mentally I was not ready to go to coach TKD classes for kids (it was just too much for me). It was impossible to just wait with the pain, so...