Change of plans
I am easily adaptable to new places, but after few of the most recent incidents and moving from the place A to B and from B to C and now thinking in the C, where the heck I have come, I have started to think if this is really what I want.
Do I really want to experience shit treatment from farmers and hostel owners, who seem like not giving a fuck if everyone gets a job or not caring what happens on the farm. It is like "what happens on the farm, stays on the farm."
Backpackers go to the hostels to get a job they were promised to have, and when they arrive, they might need to wait even a month to start working.
But I am also not a person who gives up, in fact, those who know me (personally or online) are probably very well aware, that I am the last person to give up. I am the one who keeps going even at the moment giving up would, in fact, be a better option.
BUT as I wrote before, some of the recent things that have happened have made me think this a little more.
It all has made me see things differently, and made me realize, that even though I have told all the time I am not missing home, I actually do miss it.
The thing is, that I am not going to get the visa extension by doing farm work.
I am simply done.
Not calculating my 88 days anymore.
And there are so many reasons for this, not only my back. But also how farmers treat us, even though farmers basically rely on visitors to get their crops harvested (taken from the Fair Work website). And even though I think our supervisor likes me, but I do not like how she treats others - I just cannot watch and listen to it. Sorry that we, who started 2 days ago, are not as fast as the lady who has worked there for 6 years.
And let me tell you, the work in that banana shed in sorting bananas is really hard work. You need to be fast, and you need to work from 7am to 3.30pm. Two 30min breaks, but other than that, the supervisor basically sees you all the time. No time to be lazy, or she will come to you and tell you are too slow and she will kick you out (has not said that to me though).
I know some might think this as a giving up, and trust me, it has taken me weeks to make this as my final decision.
Still a few days ago, I was going to write a post, that this was my plan B, but since today I got confirmation from my previous employer in Finland, that I can work in his company again, I made the decision, that I will put my plan B into action asap.
Of course, some people have helped me to make this decision, and getting back to Brisbane for the last few months feels like the best option right now.
Tully is nice, I like the small town vibes, but I miss Brisbane. It has been the place I feel like being home.
After I have done that one, I hope I am able to get back to Brisbane by the end of the month - this depends on the termination times (I think it was a week or two).
On June, my visa is valid until 15th of June, I will travel back to Finland to work for my previous employer.
But here is the thing.
The idea for me going to work for my previous employer is, that I will get enough money for studying in Brisbane and for the student visa. It means, that I will stay in Finland at least for 6 months to get the amount I need as proof of having enough money when I lodge the student visa application.
I am not aiming for those AU$50.000 studies, heck no, I am not a millionaire, and I swear that I will not get that much from working in ice cream kiosk and grill.
In fact, already for several months, I have been thinking of individual support studies, and I would be especially interested in children's disability. :)
That one is around AU$7.000 plus English language test.
OR the other option is first studying general English for 6 months (probably the most common course to extend stay in Australia easily and in a cheap way), and then get the English language test as included in the course price, and after that apply to the individual support course. ;)
--> I am all about keeping my options open.
This all going back to Finland temporarily for work would also mean getting back to hammer throw, because my dear coach is also moving back to Finland (from Texas, US) latest on August. And he has promised to help me to get back on track. So I am doing the famous comeback I have wanted to do for so long already!!
So just wait for it, and you will see my throwing videos soon! ;) The perfect idea to follow me on Instagram, if you are not yet following, because that is definitely the first place I am going to post all updates in everything.
I have been thinking, that if I am going to do it like this, and go back to Finland, it is all against my plans and decisions to just bear the farm work and never give up.
Getting the visa extension by doing farm work, is definitely the cheapest option (not the easiest - at least not physically).
But as someone with chronic pain, I have decided, that I cannot risk my health just for getting one more year in Australia. Yes, that is what I would love to get as soon as possible. But at the same time, what do I get from that?
Just 2nd-year visa, which is nothing towards my goals in life, nothing related to my dream job.
Staying in Australia is what I want, but I think farm work is not the best way for me.
And we have to work for our dreams, so my way of working for it is getting back to Finland, see my friends and my family (and my cat<3), work hard, spend as less money as possible, and then come back to Australia, to really chase my dreams.
The answer to the question is this giving up:
I do not know.
Yes, I feel like that once in a while, and I feel bad stopping my farm work.
I would have loved to do the 88 days and prove that anything is possible with chronic pain. Which is true btw, anything is possible but is it worth it?
I guess everyone can have own opinion about this one.
I have not yet completely decided what is mine.
But I am excited about the path I have chosen. The path which is really towards my new goals in life.
My time in Australia so far has changed me completely.
It has changed me, and my plans. Everything.
It has gave me the motivation to get back to hammer throw again.
And it has made me realize, that maybe the tourism industry is not the work I want to do in the future.
And getting back to Brisbane for the last couple of months, it also means getting back to my gym family! <3
And probably finally also getting back to my healthy eating. ;)
Here was a quick update. More to come! :)
Do I really want to experience shit treatment from farmers and hostel owners, who seem like not giving a fuck if everyone gets a job or not caring what happens on the farm. It is like "what happens on the farm, stays on the farm."
Backpackers go to the hostels to get a job they were promised to have, and when they arrive, they might need to wait even a month to start working.
But I am also not a person who gives up, in fact, those who know me (personally or online) are probably very well aware, that I am the last person to give up. I am the one who keeps going even at the moment giving up would, in fact, be a better option.
BUT as I wrote before, some of the recent things that have happened have made me think this a little more.
It all has made me see things differently, and made me realize, that even though I have told all the time I am not missing home, I actually do miss it.
Not only because of my back
It is not about if I want to stay in Australia longer or not, because that is what I still want. That is my main goal and the reason why I have made huge changes in my plans.The thing is, that I am not going to get the visa extension by doing farm work.
I am simply done.
Not calculating my 88 days anymore.
And there are so many reasons for this, not only my back. But also how farmers treat us, even though farmers basically rely on visitors to get their crops harvested (taken from the Fair Work website). And even though I think our supervisor likes me, but I do not like how she treats others - I just cannot watch and listen to it. Sorry that we, who started 2 days ago, are not as fast as the lady who has worked there for 6 years.
And let me tell you, the work in that banana shed in sorting bananas is really hard work. You need to be fast, and you need to work from 7am to 3.30pm. Two 30min breaks, but other than that, the supervisor basically sees you all the time. No time to be lazy, or she will come to you and tell you are too slow and she will kick you out (has not said that to me though).
I know some might think this as a giving up, and trust me, it has taken me weeks to make this as my final decision.
Still a few days ago, I was going to write a post, that this was my plan B, but since today I got confirmation from my previous employer in Finland, that I can work in his company again, I made the decision, that I will put my plan B into action asap.
Of course, some people have helped me to make this decision, and getting back to Brisbane for the last few months feels like the best option right now.
Tully is nice, I like the small town vibes, but I miss Brisbane. It has been the place I feel like being home.
So what is my plan exactly?
My current plan is to terminate my current employment. I know, I have only worked for a couple of days, but I have always told, that I am not ready to risk my health for anything. Risking own health for money is not a good idea either.After I have done that one, I hope I am able to get back to Brisbane by the end of the month - this depends on the termination times (I think it was a week or two).
On June, my visa is valid until 15th of June, I will travel back to Finland to work for my previous employer.
But here is the thing.
The idea for me going to work for my previous employer is, that I will get enough money for studying in Brisbane and for the student visa. It means, that I will stay in Finland at least for 6 months to get the amount I need as proof of having enough money when I lodge the student visa application.
I am not aiming for those AU$50.000 studies, heck no, I am not a millionaire, and I swear that I will not get that much from working in ice cream kiosk and grill.
In fact, already for several months, I have been thinking of individual support studies, and I would be especially interested in children's disability. :)
That one is around AU$7.000 plus English language test.
OR the other option is first studying general English for 6 months (probably the most common course to extend stay in Australia easily and in a cheap way), and then get the English language test as included in the course price, and after that apply to the individual support course. ;)
--> I am all about keeping my options open.
This all going back to Finland temporarily for work would also mean getting back to hammer throw, because my dear coach is also moving back to Finland (from Texas, US) latest on August. And he has promised to help me to get back on track. So I am doing the famous comeback I have wanted to do for so long already!!
So just wait for it, and you will see my throwing videos soon! ;) The perfect idea to follow me on Instagram, if you are not yet following, because that is definitely the first place I am going to post all updates in everything.
Is this giving up?
The reason why I have not been able to make the decision before today is, that until now (for already weeks), I have seen this decision as giving up.I have been thinking, that if I am going to do it like this, and go back to Finland, it is all against my plans and decisions to just bear the farm work and never give up.
Getting the visa extension by doing farm work, is definitely the cheapest option (not the easiest - at least not physically).
But as someone with chronic pain, I have decided, that I cannot risk my health just for getting one more year in Australia. Yes, that is what I would love to get as soon as possible. But at the same time, what do I get from that?
Just 2nd-year visa, which is nothing towards my goals in life, nothing related to my dream job.
Staying in Australia is what I want, but I think farm work is not the best way for me.
And we have to work for our dreams, so my way of working for it is getting back to Finland, see my friends and my family (and my cat<3), work hard, spend as less money as possible, and then come back to Australia, to really chase my dreams.
The answer to the question is this giving up:
I do not know.
Yes, I feel like that once in a while, and I feel bad stopping my farm work.
I would have loved to do the 88 days and prove that anything is possible with chronic pain. Which is true btw, anything is possible but is it worth it?
I guess everyone can have own opinion about this one.
I have not yet completely decided what is mine.
But I am excited about the path I have chosen. The path which is really towards my new goals in life.
My time in Australia so far has changed me completely.
It has changed me, and my plans. Everything.
It has gave me the motivation to get back to hammer throw again.
And it has made me realize, that maybe the tourism industry is not the work I want to do in the future.
And getting back to Brisbane for the last couple of months, it also means getting back to my gym family! <3
And probably finally also getting back to my healthy eating. ;)
Here was a quick update. More to come! :)
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