Road Back On Track

It is almost end of the year - well there is still Christmas before New Years, but because I am going to spend next 3 weeks (from Thursday) with my parents, I will take a break from blogging and be back the first week of January. ;) It is time to recall what happened in 2018. Sports My back problem basically destroyed all the sportive dreams I had for the year 2018. The dream, that I would throw at least 50m and compete in Finnish Championships was a totally realistic dream, as well as my dream to get a blue belt in Taekwon-Do. But because of my back issue, my dreams never came true. And it all put me down so much, that I started to live a very unhealthy life. More about that later. Since I was not able to do what I would have wanted to do, I decided to do something else. I tried new sports, I even went to cross-country skiing after not doing it for over 10 years. I did some running (yeah, really), and I also did some coaching in TKD - and maybe involved myself a little too mu

Have you ever had the feeling that you want to give up? You have a huge dream, but you feel like you cannot get it, that always something goes wrong, and you are just done with trying again. Done with trying " one more time ". Have you ever been writing messages to your coach about how you just want to give up, that you are done? But never sending those, because there has been a little hope somewhere, and sending the message has felt too hard to send? Have you ever been crying in your bed and thinking you should give up, but at the same time thinking, that what if you give up now, and then regret later? I have had all of those thoughts in my head. And that is why I am writing this. So that if some other athlete, or anyone, is thinking, that giving up own dream would be the best decision, maybe they could think again. Think again, even though you would have thought it already so many times. Moments of giving up I was in a really bad place first in 2014-2015. The t