Road Back On Track

"I have two options, either fight or break down. Rise up or fall down. Alone between four walls, I can be afraid of the world, but I decide choosing to live." ~ Uniikki, Jannika B ( Valitsen elämän ) Translated words from one of my favorite songs, from the part that perfectly describes my experiences, my thoughts, my life. As everyone already probably knows, it has not been an easy journey with my chronic pain. It has included a lot of pain, tears, hopelessness and even giving up. It has never been easy, not at the start when I still had all my hopes and dreams left, not in the middle when I lost everything, and not now when I have again the courage to dream and dare to have goals. During all these 2 years, it has not been easy, but it has been easy to act that everything would have been ok. When in fact, it has not been perfectly ok. For already 2 years I have been afraid of making it worse, almost every day. It has been living in fear. And the time it really went

It has taken me a long time to get to this point, to the point where I can honestly say, that whatever happens, I am not going to give up on my dreams. And I know there are people who do not understand this and might never understand. I am not blaming them. If you do not get it, maybe you are a person who has never had a setback, or maybe you have given up chasing your dreams after setback, maybe you have never experienced real dedication and want to achieve something. And if you have not, there is no way you could understand. It is OK, maybe one you will understand it all. Back to the point: I will keep coming back I know I have been writing a lot before how I am not sure if I could face any setbacks anymore and fight my way back from there. This just proves that it has not been long ago when I still thought that way. Now I think, that whatever comes on my way, I will be back. I will keep fighting. I will keep coming back. As long as I think something every day, I mu