Bipolar depression
"When my bipolar is starting to show the signs of depression, it makes me think I'm less worthy than others. Because I have an illness, a lifetime illness that requires lifetime medication. Even when everything is going well." From the outside, depression might be seen as laziness, sadness, and unproductivity. Usually, you can't even see someone having depression, or depressive episode going on. Because we usually keep smiling and keep going as long as we can. Often we keep on going too long. But from the inside , there are so many feelings, actions, and ways to see life at that moment. Exhausted, not being able to get up from bed and shower. Feeling nothing. Nothing at all. Or everything at once. Crying out loud or not being able to cry at all. Want to sleep all day long. Waking up in the middle of the night or sleeping around the clock with no problem at all. Lack of self-care. As said, showering makes you tired but also it loses the importance of doing so. C