Unexplained symptoms
What it feels like to have symptoms where doctors cannot find any explanation? When one issue from almost 3 weeks ago, become a new mystery.
The symptoms and especially the pain, which comes and goes, but is basically all the time there, and therefore interferes with normal life.
You start to question yourself. Even though you know, that the symptoms are real, that the pain is real. You still, at some point, will start to think, that maybe you are the one who is imaging it. What if it is not real? What if it is all in your head?
Unfortunately, there is still a lot of unexplained illnesses in the world, diseases where doctors do not have any name yet. And that is the reason why at some point, the people with mysterious symptoms should just accept the truth. Truth, that also in the medical field, the "I do not know" exists.
It does not mean that you should quit searching, quit finding answers. But it means, that instead of thinking "what is causing my symptoms?" "what is the diagnose for all of this?", start to think about how you would be able to manage the symptoms so that will not completely ruin your life.
And at the same time continue searching for answers, because every other illness with a name, has been unexplained illnesses without a name before.
At some day there hopefully will be an answer. But before that happens, managing symptoms rather than just search for the diagnose is a much better option and makes life much easier.
I did not come to Australia for doing nothing. I came here to do my internship, and yes, taking care of own body and health is important, but I would do anything and everything to get back to normal life. In some ways that is what I am exactly doing because I do all the tests there is, I see a specialist doctor, and we are trying to figure out what is going on.
But I still feel like, that I should do more. Even though I know, there is nothing else I could do.
And I should not feel bad for not being at work, I should not give so hard time for myself and think that I should be doing training. Because the truth is, that I cannot do everything right now, and I should just accept it.
It has been almost 3 weeks with unexplained stomach pain, and other symptoms accompanied with the pain. Literally every week I have had some test to find answers. Only during this week, I have had an endoscopy, blood tests, and CT scan. Endoscopy came back normal, as well as the blood tests. I am still waiting for the results from the biopsies my doctor took during the endoscopy, and also CT scan results. I have given up fighting with my insurance company, and I have just paid everything beforehand and then claim the expenses afterward. Obviously, the insurance company doctor has this mindset, that everything should be done as in Finland - giving medications and hoping for the magic cure. Whilst in here, the doctor wants to find the real reason for the issue and get the real treatment for that.
I have a strong hope, that I am closer to find answers. Even if I would not be, at least there are several conditions already ruled out, which makes the list smaller and smaller. But also brings on the table the less common conditions, those where just normal tests are not giving the answers.
Right now my doctor (and I) is worried about the fact, that when days go by, my pain and my symptoms are getting worse. Some days they are the same as before, but there have not been many days with less severe symptoms. And that is a bit worrisome, it means, that something is wrong, but the question is, what is it? How to find it, and more importantly what is the treatment?
The fact is, that the doctor does not have any idea why I have pain and other symptoms.
My last appointment ended with my doctor asking me "what do you think this all could be?"
This, after he made a full evaluation of my past medical history, and made me confess like the millionth time that no, I have not had similar pain before, and yes, maybe some symptoms I have had before, but not so severe.
I told, that I have no idea and closed the door behind.
So the reason I am not telling in more depth way what my doctor thinks is that he does not know. And if he has even a small idea, he does not tell me to not make me worry more. Which I am grateful for because I want to get the test results and then hear what I have tested for. So no, I do not even sometimes know what the tests are, because doctor's handwriting is a bit hard to understand.
But another reason why I am not telling everything is, that I want to be sure before I start guessing and writing.
I keep the closest people, who might have the real need and want for all the detailed information updated, I keep my Instagram account somewhat updated and I write more updates here, to my blog, when I have more answers.
Ps. Did I already tell, that of course because of spending so much time in hospitals etc, I got cold. Again. A second "flu" in a month. Great, absolutely awesome.
The symptoms and especially the pain, which comes and goes, but is basically all the time there, and therefore interferes with normal life.
You start to question yourself. Even though you know, that the symptoms are real, that the pain is real. You still, at some point, will start to think, that maybe you are the one who is imaging it. What if it is not real? What if it is all in your head?
Unfortunately, there is still a lot of unexplained illnesses in the world, diseases where doctors do not have any name yet. And that is the reason why at some point, the people with mysterious symptoms should just accept the truth. Truth, that also in the medical field, the "I do not know" exists.
It does not mean that you should quit searching, quit finding answers. But it means, that instead of thinking "what is causing my symptoms?" "what is the diagnose for all of this?", start to think about how you would be able to manage the symptoms so that will not completely ruin your life.
And at the same time continue searching for answers, because every other illness with a name, has been unexplained illnesses without a name before.
At some day there hopefully will be an answer. But before that happens, managing symptoms rather than just search for the diagnose is a much better option and makes life much easier.
I did not come to Australia for doing nothing. I came here to do my internship, and yes, taking care of own body and health is important, but I would do anything and everything to get back to normal life. In some ways that is what I am exactly doing because I do all the tests there is, I see a specialist doctor, and we are trying to figure out what is going on.
But I still feel like, that I should do more. Even though I know, there is nothing else I could do.
And I should not feel bad for not being at work, I should not give so hard time for myself and think that I should be doing training. Because the truth is, that I cannot do everything right now, and I should just accept it.
It has been almost 3 weeks with unexplained stomach pain, and other symptoms accompanied with the pain. Literally every week I have had some test to find answers. Only during this week, I have had an endoscopy, blood tests, and CT scan. Endoscopy came back normal, as well as the blood tests. I am still waiting for the results from the biopsies my doctor took during the endoscopy, and also CT scan results. I have given up fighting with my insurance company, and I have just paid everything beforehand and then claim the expenses afterward. Obviously, the insurance company doctor has this mindset, that everything should be done as in Finland - giving medications and hoping for the magic cure. Whilst in here, the doctor wants to find the real reason for the issue and get the real treatment for that.
I have a strong hope, that I am closer to find answers. Even if I would not be, at least there are several conditions already ruled out, which makes the list smaller and smaller. But also brings on the table the less common conditions, those where just normal tests are not giving the answers.
Right now my doctor (and I) is worried about the fact, that when days go by, my pain and my symptoms are getting worse. Some days they are the same as before, but there have not been many days with less severe symptoms. And that is a bit worrisome, it means, that something is wrong, but the question is, what is it? How to find it, and more importantly what is the treatment?
The fact is, that the doctor does not have any idea why I have pain and other symptoms.
My last appointment ended with my doctor asking me "what do you think this all could be?"
This, after he made a full evaluation of my past medical history, and made me confess like the millionth time that no, I have not had similar pain before, and yes, maybe some symptoms I have had before, but not so severe.
I told, that I have no idea and closed the door behind.
So the reason I am not telling in more depth way what my doctor thinks is that he does not know. And if he has even a small idea, he does not tell me to not make me worry more. Which I am grateful for because I want to get the test results and then hear what I have tested for. So no, I do not even sometimes know what the tests are, because doctor's handwriting is a bit hard to understand.
But another reason why I am not telling everything is, that I want to be sure before I start guessing and writing.
I keep the closest people, who might have the real need and want for all the detailed information updated, I keep my Instagram account somewhat updated and I write more updates here, to my blog, when I have more answers.
Ps. Did I already tell, that of course because of spending so much time in hospitals etc, I got cold. Again. A second "flu" in a month. Great, absolutely awesome.
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